Humility

Hello! It has been awhile since I have posted...sorry about that.

Things here are good. I had my 2 week follow-up appointment and the doctor says that I am healing well. My husband has been a great nurse and I can't say enough good things about him (as usual).

We are coping well with the outcome of the surgery. Of course I am only human...and some days are better than others. But, Reggie and I agree that we CAN get through this! If we couldn't, it wouldn't have happened to us. So for now we have decided to take it easy and not make any decisions re: adoption, etc. Well...I take that back...we have decided on adoption when the time is right. I am going to spend the next several months getting my "rear in gear" so that I can look and feel like the person that I am on the inside. It should be easier now that I no longer have the tumors.

I will not be graphic, but the doctor explained to me that I was VERY sick. Way more sick than I even knew... I am very blessed to have made it through this. She told me that at some point she actually had to call in an oncologist while she was removing everything. Scary stuff! But no worries, I am cancer-free...she just needed some extra hands to remove the monster from my body.

So, during this recovery period, I feel very special because I am learning a lot. I feel like a 5th grader who can't stop reading...but I am not learning from books. I am learning from the graciousness of others...friends, family, my husband...even the cat! (He dutifully stays with me all day.) What I am learning about is humility...

Those of you know me know that I can get a little controlling in all things...work, home (especially the kitchen)... For some reason I am usually only comfortable when I am in control. Flying is a perfect example, I feel like I would be safer flying the plane even though I do not have a pilot's license. This is irrational I know, but I guess that I may be a little "type A". Well, when I put myself in the hands of the doctor and the anesthesiologist, I let go...I relinquished control..and you know what? it is one of the best things that has happened to me in recent years.

I am humbled by the skills and professional care of the doctors and nurses that I experienced.

I am humbled by the unwavering faith that my husband has in me that I can get through this.

I am humbled by the generosity of friends who have helped us out by bringing us meals, sending flowers, sending well wishes, but mostly by their friendship.

I am humbled by my family who keeps me in their thoughts and prayers at all times.

But most of all...I am humbled by something I can't fully understand, something bigger than all of us. I am so blessed...

So it is time for a change...I am changing the title of the blog. The address will remain the same, but I think that "Tracy's Place" is more appropriate. There is no need to dwell on the surgery any longer. I made it through and it is time for a little optimism. :)